Showing posts with label gripes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gripes. Show all posts

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Hanging from a cliff


Here's another frustrating thing....you get your hair whacked off and everyone says, Wow, great hair cut...how am I supposed to say Thank You to that? Especially when I keep finding random long hairs. We had a Sunday School Teachers meeting yesterday and then church today and it was awkward to say the least.
Josh's dad and step-mom came in for a visit Thursday and left yesterday morning and I've been trying to read Inkspell so there's the reason I never got back to ya'll about the thorn in my flesh.

Okay here it is...
Two weeks ago it was mentioned in the sermon that we should try to befriend those of a lower economic status than ourselves. I almost stood up and offered everyone my token friendship. And then I thought...how patronizing. Knowing the person who gave the message, I'm sure he had the purest intentions but it has bothered me nonetheless. His point was that maybe we'd be more content with what we have if we were around people who had less. He pointed out how much the average house size has increased since the late 50's.
So here's the problem...I'm feeling like I need to stop spending time with everyone I know because they all have more than I do and I am way more content when I hermit myself away and don't see, hear, or know what other people are spending their money on. And if I follow this silly logic to its end then I wouldn't dare seek out someone who had less than me because then they would see what I have and not be content.
Then the my frustrations invariably turns to getting rid of all we have and moving to a third world country. Yeah, and then I find out in church this morning that a small group of people went to Haiti. How many years have we been talking about that...and how many people in our church knows our desire for that and we heard nothing about it before hand. Not that it would have mattered because we don't have a few thousand on hand to fly down there like they do. Oh, bitterness leave my soul because God knows what we have and what we are supposed to be doing and obviously it is to sit right here in our little rented house with one car shopping at Goodwill. And the Good Lord knew before the world was created who would be our family and friends and obviously he knows what he's doing and I need to be doing more trusting and less hanging on.
I don't know what I was thinking when I thought about posting this but there it is....
(sidenote...turns out Josh did know about the Haiti trip but we didn't have our passports...filled out my application last night....AND the cruises we took were entirely paid for by my dad with only a little money spent on souvenirs )

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

My heart may fail

Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
I was going to post about something I've been frustrated about since the sermon preached two Sundays ago but that will have to wait.
This afternoon I went to get my hair trimmed.
Trimmed, evened up, shaped
At no point did I say HACK
Yes
AND...
it isn't even symmetrically whacked!@
I am fearful that if I go back tomorrow to get it evened out that I will return bald.
Why can't ANY franchise hair cutter understand the term "leave the length"?
That's all I have to say about being frustrated for today... maybe more tomorrow.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Frustrated


They were forbidden by the Holy Spirit to preach the Word in Asia. --Acts 16:6
Do you think they were frustrated?

This past year I have two books in my car to read when I have a waiting moment. A biography on Dietrich Bonhoeffer was the first and the second book was A Slow and Certain Light Elisabeth Elliot.

Out of all the Elisabeth Elliot books I have read, this one may be the best. I started reading it again but then got sidetracked by the Inkheart books. However...one of the themes of God's guidance seemed relevant tonight as I felt frustrated.

It seems a lot of my plans lately have been frustrated or have not gone as I planed. .....
Not that I'm some great planner or rely heavily on my plans but if I get around to making a plan it is a little frustrating to have it fall apart.

My last post about my summer routine....fell to pieces. Stewart got bored going to the Y and swimming while John-Thomas was in Piano camp

I tried to make plans for us to see a free summer movie today with friends but they fell apart and my exercise plans for tomorrow are crumbling in light of scheduling piano camp and piano lessons for the kids.

Elise was supposed to start K12 next year and do public virtual school like the rest of the family but I got a call yesterday saying the crazy Florida Legislature changed the rules in May and she is no longer eligible. What do I do now. But John-Thomas is now #3 on the waiting list to get into Landon.
Even though I am frustrated that there is no consistency to my life in the least, I know God is in control and is directing our steps.
We still got to see the O'Donells on Saturday even though our plans went helter skelter. There's something to be very thankful about.
Tomorrow I'll post something else I'm frustrated about...that has been gnawing at me for a week and a half. Can't wait can you?