Humpty Dumpty Sat on a wall

"It is a blessed mark of growth out of spiritual infancy when we can fore go the joys which once appeared to be essential, and can find our solace in him who denies them to us." Charles Spurgeon, The Treasury of David, vol. 1 (Grand Rapids: Zondervan, 1950)

"What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures." James 4:3-1

Some of Rick Bourque's sermon notes from yesterday on Pride:

• Demands control over life and becomes anxious when we can't control what we've wrapped our identity around (an idol).
• Fears that others may discover the real me; is unwilling to let others have the higher ground of helping me.
• Blinds me to grace in others and to gratitude for grace in me.
• Demands that only those whom I respect and who treat me with kindness get to correct/teach me.

From Spurgeon's quote I would think that once done with infancy that I would continue onto maturity. After all I have given up the joys that I once thought essential...evidently new ones have replaced the old ones or there were so many that I have yet to give up I seem to constantly stay in the stage of infancy. Between my conversations, book reading and sermons they all point to the idols with in and the fact that I haven't been completely broken like my friend Humpty Dumpty but knowing that I am teeter tottering on the wall.